Friday sucked. Saturday was passable. And then last night I broke down and ate all the cereal in the house.
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Little Sis is sick (Mum says it's bronchitis, but it sounds like she's got the consumption the way she's coughing, so I've been trying not to go near her). And when Little Sis is sick/sad/anything-other-than-blissfully-happy, Mum must do all in her power to make Little Sis feel better. [I never received this treatment, so it perplexes me somewhat.] So last night, Mum told Little Sis she'd make her or buy her whatever the heck she wanted for dinner, and Little Sis demanded spinach and artichoke dip from a nearby restaurant.
That was fine with me--I'd had only turkey bacon, coffee, and some Jell-O mousse and was saving my cals for a Lean Cuisine and perhaps a bit of ice cream afterwards. Plus, everything from that specific restaurant makes me incredibly ill, so I wouldn't really have been tempted anyway.
But Step-dad goes through these weird mood swings where he tries to be Mr. Nice Guy in his futile attempts to get me on His Side. [The War of Mum and Men is a long one....]. Step-dad goes to pick up Little Sis's food, and comes back with a Cornish hen for me. Apparently it was on the specials, and he knows I like Cornish hens.
I know that from the outside, this looks like a nice kind little gesture, but Step-dad not only KNOWS that I do not eat large meals, he also knows that all food from that restaurant makes me sick. So he gets me a whole bollocky Cornish hen, with carb-filled stuffing and veggies that are covered in grease.
Thanks a lot.
To be polite (because my other set of parents [Dad and Step-mom] violently drilled manners into me at an early age) I took the dinner with a smile and decided to just pick at the chicken. Meat is safe, because it has little to no carbs. But did I succeed in just picking? OF COURSE NOT. I go into starved wolverine mode, and devour the entire box of food.
That's furry, kind of freaky-lookin' animal wolverine,
not the hot ultimate man Wolverine.
He wouldn't give me the time of day, because I'm FAT.
And then I had some ice cream. And some fiber bars. And then all the effing cereal in the house.

Oh and guess what? Dinner made me sick. Not sick enough to vomit (lucky me!), just sick enough to have heartburn and stomach pain all night, so I could roll around my bed covered in a cold sweat until everything finally passed through my digestive system with all the subtlety of a hydrogen bomb. I emptied an entire bottle of Christmas-flavoured Febreeze into the befouled air of the bathroom, so now the whole upstairs reeks like holiday cheer. And I wish I had the willpower to starve myself to death.
I'm not depressed or suicidal or anything. I'm just out of control, and I hate it. But today is Monday, and I WILL NOT lose control again.
At least not until the weekend.
I'm also out of drugs again, so I'll have to exercise naturally. >:( Oh hang it all!!!
I like this:
Anorexia mirabilis (or holy anorexia): (medieval Europe): severe restriction of food intake, associated with experience of religious devotion.
There's lots of other weird anxiety disorders I never knew about...
~:[
ReplyDeleteMich, you're amazing.
I have no words which'll make it all better. but just know one thing- you're amazing.
Well and truly.
That was a pretty spiteful tihng for him to do. I'm sorry :l
My mum is like that with my older brother. like the world revolves around him, and with my younger brother too. Guess she likes her boysss.
Oh well.
I hope you feel better soon. And thank you so very much for WOLVERINE.
Aah.
Please take care, xxx
Had the same kind of weekend. Hope your Monday goes better :/ I'll be resisting the urge to let the weekend binge spill over to the weekday as well.
ReplyDeleteYea.... I had a fatty-gorgey weekend too. Ugh. Fun, isn't it?
ReplyDeleteOn the good side...I love those cereal box pics. Hilarious!
Wolves are amazing :) dw, we all have bad days, its human! You will get back on track :) your an amazing person :) xx
ReplyDeleteAhhhh, yes, the war of parents with their food, i know it well...especially since i am staying with mine at the moment. The battle of the binge is never ending when reletives and their goodies and emotions are involved. and to think i hoped to LOSE weight while i was here...HA!
ReplyDeletei did dearly love this post, however i am so sorry for the "crappy" weekend.
The cereal boxes are hilarious and love the wolverine twins!
Love, love, love,
tracy
Your pics and videos always make me smile!
ReplyDeleteWeekends = binge for me and cereal is always the culprit. Parent's shouldn't be allowed to buy food for their childern as an attempt to be nice- it only drills into our subconcious that one should go to food to feel better. When I was younger, mom would always "reward" me with a chocolate brownie from her work every single night after supper...until the doc told her I was too fat and she sould stop it. Actually, his precise words for describing me was "butter ball" T.T
If there's a plate of food in front of me and I'm hungry, I can't just pick at one thing, I usually just end up devouring the whole plate, so you are not alone in the world of "wolverine-ness" =).
Subtlety as a hydrogen bomb, that made me laugh! And the video makes me want to go to the store, buy all the old Disney films, and make a weekend out of it! I never noticed how stick then some of the movie characters were back then...good lord T.T
♥
My mother still thinks I like Macaroni and Cheese- my favorite meal aged 8, after 4 years of anorexia and inpatient stages she still hasn't caught on...
ReplyDeletesorry bit random,,,i just wanted to comment because you're awesome :)
o damn hun im sorry that u had a bad wkd so sorry
ReplyDeletei know he was tryingto b nice but he should of realized that the food isntthe best for u
i guess we were both running back and forth tot he bathroom huh gotta love our lives
You can pick your self back up again :) I hate it when someone tries to be nice and then I refuse to accept and then comes the guilt trip I dread and then it ends up me apologizing and ending up doing whatever.
ReplyDeleteI lold at the picture of Wolverine.
SWORD AND THE STONE <3
Haha... sounds like my weekend too, and that chicken/turkey think whatever the hell it was... sounds amazing...
ReplyDeleteBrussel sprouts = love <3
Obviously I'm now going to have to watch the sword in the stone and X-men again...
ReplyDeleteI hate stupid people who want to make me happy with food. "oh thank you SO MUCH for the fat/lard/calories, headache over what to do, and eventual inevitable guilt. Fantastic."
haha love the "cereal" killers
i think a lot of us messed up this weekend. i certainly did. good luck getting back on track. <3
ReplyDeleteI hope you're feeling better- I spent the morning much the same way- I feel your pain. You can get back on track- just keep at it xxx
ReplyDeletemondays just suck in general, ive read a few posts tonight and everyone had a bad monday. keep up the hard work and make tomorrow fantastic! good luck :]
ReplyDeleteI absolutely love the pictures of the cereal boxes, damn that evil food!
ReplyDeleteI hate when my parents/friends/other family members buy or make me food, I also am big on manners so it's hard to be rude and completely turn it down, especially when food is a way my family shows 'love'.
Sounds like this past weekend was one big binge fuck for a lot of people I've talked too, don't let it get you down<3 today is the start of a new week so a chance to start all over. I know it's cliche, but true.
Stay lovely :)
ugh doesn't sound too pleasant hun. dw about it though - tomorrow is there to fix things! xx
ReplyDeleteUgh, that kinda sucks. But it was only one day.
ReplyDeleteHang in there, pretty.
<3
Yup! Just pop it in the freezer. easy peasy. But remember to cut it up BEFORE you freeze it lol I like balls cause they're cute and mouth sized or if you want to lick it you can cut it into a bigger shape, or if you don't care and want to blend it like a slushie just make sure you peel it. It tastes really good half frozen too if you're impatient like me! Any fruit works- my faves are banana (it's creamy!) mandarin/orange, pineapple, grapes, berries, apple- they're all good! Enjoy xxx
ReplyDeleteOh that's a pretty spiteful thing for him to do. Don't stress about the binge, you'll lose the weight soon enough, and who knows, it might be a miracle binge where you don't gain! Good luck for tomorrow x
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