I did not binge!

I think this is the first Friday night in a loooooong time that I successfully avoided stuffing my face. I did eat a few handfuls of little pretzels at the pub, so I felt kind of fat after that, but hopefully it didn't wreak too much havoc.

All the same, my weight is STILL 109, like it has been for over a month. I exercise, don't eat, and yet the weight just will not go down. I feel like no matter what I do, I'll still be a lard ass. I could work out 3 hours a day and stop eating altogether, and the scale will still mock me with the same number every morning. :*( Sometimes I feel like I should just give up and eat and be a giant fat elephant.

Today I ate: cereal (140), coffee (10), moment-of-weakness oreos (250 = HUGE HIPPPO), Lean Cuisine (150), beer (160), pretzels (100?), and exercised for 1000 calories for a Grand Total of -190. Not exactly an awesome day, but at least I'm still in negative cals....