...I am going to visit my father.
Every time I do this, I feel like a prisoner heading towards my execution. I feel like I should be having my last meal right about now.
BUT I shall rise above these silly feelings, and just follow my mother's advice: hold still and don't make any sudden movements until it's over, then just pretend it never happened.
I don't think she had visiting my father in mind when she told me that, but I feel like it applies. More later, after the visit. Then perhaps I might explain why my father and I have lots of issues, if y'all are interested. It's not that exciting.
I didn't binge last night! Go me!
yay for not binging
ReplyDeletejust take ur own adivce there hun just get thru it i know u have ur reasons for not wanting to visit him and thats fine but if ur mom wants u to then go and avoid a fight with her later on just do what u have to to get thru it
I second that "yay". Good luck at your dad's! "You will survive. You will survive!" LOL
ReplyDeleteI so understand that feeling of dread associated with seeing one or both of your parents. I felt like that everyday I came home from school and lasted until just after I graduated from college. The last time I felt it was 22 March 1999, the day I left. I haven't spoken to my family for almost 12 years now. It'll be a cold day in hell...!
ReplyDeleteHang in there, Babe. X.
P.S. Well done for not binging, pat yourself on the back!
I despise my father. Unfortunately, I still live with him.
ReplyDeleteI hope everything goes okay with you and yours. I'll be reading how it goes once you post it (:
Yay for not binging! Good luck with your father. I know you'll be okay :)
ReplyDeletefuck yes for not binging! you're a badass and don't fucking forget it! good luck seeing your father.
ReplyDeleteCongrats on the no binge! And I hope your visit with your father goes smoothly.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with the visit. The advice sounds like a good way to go.
ReplyDelete<3
I've kept a diary since the 9th of september till yesterday :) and then i quit becasue i did binge, so well done girl.
ReplyDeleteI have a stepfather adn we have a strange relationship too. Reecently I've been looking for my biological dad on the internet though :/
Hope your "meeting" goes well. He's your dad, nothing to be scared about, I hope :) xxxxx