The New York Renaissance Faire in Tuxedo Park is not to be missed. I go every year (sometimes twice a year), and buy things I don't need, and spend way too much money in general.
Yesterday, I purchased:
- A necklace with a dragon on it, which I shall wear every day until I get bored.
- A pirate hat. Apparently I looked bad-ass in it.
- Soap and scented oils from Moondancer. I would have bought them at her shop in Sugar Loaf anyway, so I do not consider this a waste of money.
- A giant deep fried onion that even four of us could not finish.
- Sam Addams Oktoberfest beer.
- A Gandalf pipe.
The lady gave me free screens and tobacco, so you better believe I was smokin' that b*tch through the whole joust. Anytime someone looked at me funny, I declared, "'Tis the finest weed in South Farthing."
Yes, I know I am a giant nerd. And I'm proud of the fact that I've read all 3 Lord of the Rings books several times, and that I have all 3 extended versions of the movies memorized.
However, I did NOT buy any swords (:**O), funnel cake, period clothing, or this super awesome ship made entirely out of glass:
I noticed something while I was there with my three friends. When I'm with this one particular friend (we'll call her "D", for the sake of privacy), I don't think about food. I mean it's there, in the back of my mind, but I'm not obsessing over food and calories and weight every second, and freaking out over how I'm going to not eat in public. Instead, I just tend to eat like a normal person. And it doesn't make me anxious, or scared. Maybe because D is the sort of person who actually does not give a crap about how she looks, or how other people think of her. I spent pretty much all of yesterday not worrying about food at all, and just having a good time at the Ren Faire like any normal person.
It makes me wonder about myself, and if I ever recover from this. Will I have to stop hanging out with my other friends, like a recovering heroin addict has to distance himself from friends who remind him of drugs? The whole idea of that gets me nervous.
Of course, as soon as I got home I went straight back to refusing food and claiming I had eaten already when Mum asked what I wanted for dinner. I didn't want the whole day going straight to hell.
I used to act in Ren Faire for a time during high school. I was part of a group that put on battles and sword fights, that sort of thing. It was a great time in my life...
ReplyDeleteI am a nerd like you dear... I'll read anything with a dragon or a robot on the cover, or a dragon-robot, which is even better.
That is amazing that you feel so healthy around your friend. I do believe that certain friends can be triggering depending on their ideas about their own body. Healthier people put off better, calming energies. If you go into recovery you may have to distance yourself from triggers for a time.
I am glad to hear you had a fun day, and didn not buy the glass ship. I bet they wanted at least several gold peices for it!
o it sounds like u ahve lots of fun yay for that
ReplyDeleteim glad that u feel good when ur around ur friend
the coolest ship ever!!!!!! Cannot imagine the time it went into crafting that!
ReplyDeleteI love fairs and markets! Jealous! You're always having such fun :)
I was talking to a friend about this the other day, it's almost like, if you want to diet, you honestly cam't have friends!! It is terribly hard to restrict/diet when you have a social life and pressure from junk eating friends!
XOX
glad you had an awesome time and some hours without food torturing you! that gandalf pipe is so cool haha. stay strong xx
ReplyDeleteWhere are you from? Cos I've noticed you spell mum with the "U" .. I'm pretty spacey, so if you've mentioned it before - I apologise.
ReplyDeleteRen Faire?
I really thought those things were just in movies.
Do people actually get all dressed up with reinactments and stuff?? That's nuts!!
I can't imagine this happening in Australia haha.
xx
Oh my gosh I'm a HUGE Lord of the Rings fan too!! I have these special dvds of all 3 of the movies that literally must have over 13 hours of makeing-of videos and interviews. It's fantastic and I wish I had your Gandalf Pipe (although I don't smoke) <3 LOTR is also my go-to sick movie. Whenever I'm sick and stuck at home I just watch one of them, or if I'm up to it all three in a row =)
ReplyDeleteSometimes I get scared thinking about recovery too, I just can't imagine what my life would be like. In a more positive spin, if you recovered maybe it would help convince your friends to recover too.
Glad you could eat food without worrying for awhile =)
Love Always,
Issyla
OMG I WANT THAT PIPE! Although I wouldn't smoke it, I'd just have it hanging out of my mouth for show ^.^
ReplyDeleteLol, right now I'm considering just supergluing my mouth shut and not speaking. GAH! Seriously bad. Now Dolly's back and trying to steamroll over me again. FUCK HER!
Get well soon. :( Reach out for support, as I promise there is so much more beyond your eating disorder.
ReplyDeleteHaha, you are so cute! I love this post. :) Glad you had fun. <3
ReplyDeleteThat pipe is undeniably badass. I go to the Ohio Ren. Fest. every year as well. I just always wish I had MORE money to waste there, haha.
ReplyDeleteAnd you know, I'm trying to learn to love myself as I am. It's difficult when I'm scared to death of obesity, and I have insults from when I was fat that run through my head every FUCKING time I gain a pound.
I've not been diagnosed with an ED, and if I've ever had one, it's only been for a short while. I know that I obsess to an unreal level... That's why I have hope in dieting and exercise the "healthy" way, even though it's already made me gain a couple of pounds.
I think the answer is out there somewhere. I hope that you find it, as well as I.
A deep fried onion?? I've never heard of such a thing! Sounds like fun, though. I wish I had a friend like that.
ReplyDeletei wanna go! Sounds like a great time!
ReplyDeleteI just want to begin by staying I really love reading your blog!
ReplyDeleteYou're so lucky to have gone to a Ren faire! I want to go to one so badly! Of course, the ones in my state aren't near as huge as the ones in NY!
I ♥ the Gandolf pipe =) LoTR is amazing! "Tis the finest weed in South Farthing." Ok, that was hilarious! I have to remember that some time...
There is nothing wrong with being a nerd- nerds are awesome (I be one too ^^). The 3 LoTR books are on my winter reading list because I have way too much crap to read this semester =(.
I love friends like that. The ones you can hang out with and seem to forget about everything that's bothering you and just have a good time. Friends like that don't come around too often, so you're very lucky =),
<3