Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Barren.

So I was driving along my merry way yesterday afternoon and came to an intersection with the following signage:
It made me giggle a little. 


I've been having weird dreams with a lot of you gals in them. They're weird because I only know what a few of you look like, and I don't know what any of you sound like. In my dream, you guys walk and talk and hang out with me, but all of you sound like the voice that's in my head narrating my thoughts. And yet you each have your own personalities. It's one of the most surreal dream experiences I've had. Even some of you that I don't know what you look like, you're there in my dreams and I know who you are, I just can't explain how. 


I'm trying to get through all your blogs, but I've been so busy the past week or so, I haven't had a chance to comment on everyone's. It makes me feel like a tool. 


I think I may need to go to the lady doctor soon. Since June, I haven't gotten my period. And it's not because I'm too thin--I'm just barely underweight, and only just got down to this weight. My period stopped when I went off birth control. And NO I am not pregnant. I've taken 3 tests just to be sure. :D (I don't think any fetus could survive this environment anyway.) The thing is, I kind of like not getting my period. If I go to my lady doctor, she will no doubt work her medical magic and I will have my period again. Every month. I've been putting off the doc for quite some time. If there's something really wrong with me, I honestly don't want to know. I figure it's just my body being messed up. I used to have really friggin bad periods: vomiting, blinding back pain, crippling stomach pain, fainting spells, fevers, and even actual contractions like you get when you're giving birth. I've been prodded, probed, sonogrammed, MRI'ed, blood-tested--the works. They couldn't find anything wrong back then, so they stuck me on the pill and that made my periods soooo much better. 


But no period at all is even better than that.


Recipe later! I'm inventing a delicious all veggie dinner, so we shall see how it goes...

24 comments:

  1. It could still be ammenorrhea [spelling?]

    You don't have to be a certain weight to lose your period. Your body only needs to decide "hey, she can't take care of herself. We shouldn't let her have children."

    Be careful, too, though. If it's been gone for 3 months or more, there could still be complications. It might even sterilize you.

    Sorry for the negative comment, I just wanna look out for you =]

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  2. weird story, mich, is that i just went off the pill recently and missed my period a month later. took a test, wasn't pregnant. but apparently you can skip a period when you're too stressed out. so maybe your stress from binging or restricting is what's doing it? i hope everything's alright though <3

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  3. It probably is a good idea to go to the doctor... I usually control mine with pills - I take regular BC like those ones that you're only supposed to have 4 periods a year. That way, I am rarely inconvenienced and it's not crazy unhealthy.

    Good luck with your culinary adventure! :)

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  4. You should share your dreams! They sound cool :) I hope all goes well at the Lady Doctor! I hate doing that stuff...so I just don't. Never been for those terrible exams...I just can't bring myself to do it. My mother, who is a nurse, keeps reminding me how awful it is of me that I haven't gone yet. Hope all turns out okay!

    *waits in anticipation for your veggie dinner recipe*!

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  5. I like how the clouds in your pic have faces =). I enjoy dreams like that- those weird ones where you "know" people in them, but yet you don't know them in real life. Your lucky to not get your period and have to worry about that every month...but have no idea what coud cause it to go AWOL on you. Low weight and not enough body faat or iron are the only things that I could think of. Good God woman...and I thought my cramp and bloating were bad! Vomiting, fainting, AND contractions...I wouldn't had my uterus taken out by now...but then there's the whole 'no kids ever' thing that I would have to deal with... I'm glad you're not going through all that anymore because that would just be evil.

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  6. Haha, dreams are funny sometimes :D I would go to the lady doc too :( It is a little worrying! :( Hope all is well with you :) Keep smiling xx

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  7. I should go to a 'lady doctor' too...but I just can't I hate the thought of never having children but I hate the thought of being probed...and eugh
    Anyway
    I love the dreams, I have really surreal dreams but I've only dreamed about appendix, now you've said it i'll probably be dreaming about you all now! x

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  8. I have dreams like that all the time!! Thank goodness someone else dreams about other bloggers :)

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  9. oh my gosh i have the same period problem! it's been 2 1/2 months since i've had it and i'm definitely not underweight so that can't be the problem. i'm afraid to go to the ob/gyn because i'm scared they'll say something about my eating habits although i know its unlikely :/ if you do go please let me know, i'm getting increasingly worried ><

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  10. i get those dreams.
    its cool how blogger has such an influence on me!

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  11. i think u should go and get it checked out if can stop for many reasons it doesnt jsut have to b weight
    stay strong

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  12. I lost my period for four months earlier this year, and I'm nowhere near underweight, so even at a normal weight, if you aren't eating properly combined with stress or something like being taken off the pill can definitely halt your period. I was the same, very glad to not be getting it. If I were you I would wait at least six months before I went to the doctor, but that is just me because I do not care much for my uterus. But you have gone nearly six months anyway, so if having babies one day is something you'd consider perhaps you should get it checked out.

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  13. It wouldn't hurt to go get checked out. Though, gosh, I certainly don't blame you for not wanted such a wretched period back!

    Looking forward to your recipe!

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  14. periods ugh.
    I think about that a lot too. What you all would be like in 'real life'.

    recipes! yippee!
    xx

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  15. Haha that is hilarious about the dream thing! It's like having an ED party or something! Man, if only we could all team up in one super cool club in real life, I'd be complete :)

    I don't blame you about the period issues. I am sooo embarrassed about this, so I don't really tell anyone, but I haven't had my period in years. And it's not because I am too thin, because I am at a normal weight for my height right now. And I haven't done a thing about it, told no one, etc. I am sure it's horrible and I won't be able to have children, but I just.... can't bring myself to tell anyone about it. I honestly don't know why. It's not a priority? But I think it's more than that. Maybe I don't want to think about all the effects this could have on my body later in life. I don't know.... But it's kind of nice to tell someone about it.

    xoxo

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  16. Oh dear, I hope everything is ok with you! Sorry your periods used to suck so much. I would hate that.

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  17. ooooh, am I one of the ppl showing up in your dreams? I'D BETTER BE!

    lol if I'm not, then go watch my vlog and then I can haunt your sleep in a much more accurate fashion.

    and yeah, you don't have to be underweight to lose your cycle, your hormones just have to be out of balance.

    I'm DEF not underweight, but my cycle is truncated, 4 days without birth control. It sometimes skips a month if I haven't been eating enough and I'm pretty sure after all this time, I'm prolly infertile. meh.

    you might wanna get it taken care of though, because estrogen imbalances are linked to osteoporosis and alzheimers and cancer and all kinda kooky shit like that.

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  18. personally.... i dont get mine either and man i love it! i know im not doing good enough if i were to get it!

    but im ridic so dont listen to me!!!!
    -happiness <3

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  19. Haha that's so funny about your dreams! You shouldn't definitely share them every now & then!

    I freaking HATE the lady doctor. I have been putting it off for years. I made an appointment last month & canceled it that morning 4 hours before I was suppose to go:/. Your period's sound ridiculously painful, I really don't blame you for putting off going! I would too. I wish I could have no period, ugh it's one of the worst things about being a woman.

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  20. Am I ever in your dreams? :O

    You are too lucky that you don't get your period. I say you shouldn't go to the doc just yet. You are TOO LUCKY.

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  21. Go to the bloody lady doctor already!!!1!

    I wanna know. . . have you ever dreamed about me? Did I talk with an American accent? Coz that would be fucking WEIRD. In my head you talk like an aussie. Dunno why o.O

    OMG I need to get a hottie. I think mine exploded or the rubber around the stopper perished or something. I figured I wouldn't need one much with a cat, but I forgot about girly times *Sigh* God yours sound totally fucking AWFUL. You have my deepest sympathies.

    I've taken the skin off 99% of the bites, so I'm using Savlon on them and playing nice. The bruised ones look gruesome! :D

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  22. It might be stress, it could be a lot of things. I think you should go to the doctor, just to see what it is and then if you don´t want your period back don´t take the pills/they always give you pills xD).
    Take care sweetie

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  23. i loved hearing about your dreams...i wish i were in them and skinny and beautiful and young, because i am none of those things!

    i would give you the advice to go to the "Lady Doctor", however i haven't been in many a year. i know i should go, however i am so ashamed of the fat and scars...i haven't had a period in a loooooong time, but that is because i am OLD....or maybe i am pregnant...ha, ha, ha! (Hubby got "fixed" years ago.)

    Loving you!

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  24. I would love to not have my period. I can see where your concern comes from though..
    That's funny that you have dreams. That sounds like something that would happen to me:)
    Can't wait for the recipe, hope everything is well<3
    XO Minnie

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