Food addiction seems so much trashier than, say, heroin addiction.

I still don’t know what’s worse: the desperate, hungry, time-stretching starvation of not eating all day; or the horrible, bloated, greasy, fat feeling right after you’ve caved in and eaten something.

I’m having a harder time than usual going back to my old habits after a week-long binge while I was away on holiday. I’ve been exercising, but I have been eating way too much. But I’m just so HUNGRY!!! I brought a bag of veggies to work today (with a tablespoon of fat free dressing) to nibble on, but I swear it only makes me MORE hungry. I feel so weak and fat, like I should just give up and eat what I want and turn into a giant piggie, because I’m obviously too weak-willed to be thin.

It’s just like rehab, I guess. If I can get through like three days of properly starving, I know I can get back into a good rhythm. But the withdrawal still sucks.

So far today, I ate: 1 bowl cereal (150), coffee (10), veggies w/dressing (about 150).