Birds of a feather...

I've noticed that we ladies who totally do not have eating disorders and are just on mega-diets (ha!) tend to travel in pairs. And not just that, we tend to travel in pairs in which one girl is anorexic and the other bulimic. It's not even a proper friendship; it's a competition. I'm actually not sure I can be a real friend. Obsession with one's appearance tends to make you pretty much the most self-centered person ever. This makes it hard to be a good friend, and it makes it really hard to stay in a relationship with a boy because you're in love with yourself, and could never be fully in love with anyone else.

So far today, I ate: 1 bowl cereal measured (160), 1 cup coffee with half & half (15).

I totally pigged out this weekend.

Sunday was the biggest disaster. Good thing I had employed the use of heavy-duty laxatives to erase the damage I did on Friday and Saturday. I did, however, exercise for 90 minutes on both Saturday and Sunday, so that should make up for it a little bit...

I was trying not to go down this particular obsessive-compulsive path, but I think it's time to start up the diary again. I've done this before, and it seemed to work pretty well. I keep a daily diary of all the calories I consume, all the exercise I do and how many calories the treadmill says I burned, and I take note of my weight for the day. If I can see just how fat I am in writing, I can work that much harder to be thinner. It was through this method that I got down to 98 pounds last time, so I'll do it again and shoot for 90.

Today, I ate: 1 bowl cereal measured (160), 1 cup coffee with half & half (20), 1 South Beach fiber bar (110), 1 Lean Cuisine dinner (290) for a Total of 580. Exercised 40 mins and burned approximately 400 cals, which makes the daily total 180. Go me!