I hate you, Fat >:(

After my weekend binge, I got back up to 110 lbs from 108. I have eaten like NOTHING this week, and exercised like crazy, with the aid of some heavy duty painkillers, and yet the weight will not budge. I want to slit my wrists. (Down the road, not across the street.)

And to make matters worse, I have to go out for my friend's birthday dinner tomorrow at a Japanese restaurant. I don't know how I'm going to get away with not touching meat, rice, or noodles without people noticing, but I'll be damned if I'm going down without a fight.

Today I ate: 1 bowl cereal (140), coffee (10), dinner of broccoli in a little teriyaki (80), and half a beer (90) for a total of 320. Exercise burned about 575, so that's a daily total of -255.

Weekends are Evil.

As far as weight loss goes, this weekend SUCKED. I went out Friday night, intending to have a side salad or something similar at the pub, and just a few Amstel Lites. I ended up having half a hamburger, like 8 Amstels, and a bunch of shots of whiskey. So I went home and took 5 laxatives.

Saturday I ate nothing and exercised like a maniac, but then Saturday night came, and being delirious from overtiredness (I can't think of any other explanation), I went out and ate a TON of Pizza Hut. I took a bunch of laxatives again, but apparently not even the most extra-strength of laxatives are any match for Pizza Hut, so the purge failed.

On Sunday, I ran for 75 minutes straight, and then did a bunch of exercises on the Total Gym. Then my friends dragged me to Friendly's. When I got home, I discovered I was out of laxatives. I needed a triple dose of sleeping pills to get to sleep, as a result of the anxiety I am still feeling.

Today I ate: 1 larger than usual bowl of cereal, out of depression (160), 1 cup coffee (10).

But today is a NEW DAY and NEW WEEK, and I will not be beaten. For the next five days, I shall consume nothing but tea and broth, and perhaps the odd vegetable if I'm forced to go out (there's birthdays coming up, and my attendance will be required in restaurants).