97 pounds this morning!!!! :D I am officially underweight. I would like to hit 95 by Thanksgiving, and 90 by Christmas because I know Christmas will make me huge and I need some room for weight gain that won't make me flip out.
I just added the photos from the 5-mile hike to my website. Check 'em out!!
My brother is all over Youtube: http://www.youtube.com/user/TheVaultable
What the f*ck.
I'm only keeping that link up for like a day or two, so WATCH THE VIDEOS because Little Bro #2 (who is 16) is fantastic. The Justin Beiber one made me laugh. And there's lots of playing Slayer on Guitar Hero, and driving lessons with my father. -_-
Went to dad's yesterday for Little Bro #1's 18th birthday. I love comparing and contrasting the conversations between my mothers.
Convo with actual mother (Mum) yesterday evening:
Mum: (on the phone with my anorexic Auntie) "Yes, she's gone very thin." ::glares at me:: "Your Aunt says you look gaunt in the photos from [Little Sis's] Sweet 16."
That particular Aunt has been starving herself since the 1960's, has been in hospital twice, and now weighs roughly 80 pounds. Plus she's taller than I am.
Me: ::tries to restrain self..... fails:: "TALK ABOUT THE POT AND THE BLOODY KETTLE."
I feel kind of bad, because this week Mum thinks I'm just on a healthy diet (she switches back and forth between that and thinking I have a Problem), and Mum herself is supposed to be eating healthier (mega fail). Like the other night, she made chicken pieces with Shake n' Bake, rice, and a Caesar salad. While she and Little Sis stuffed their faces with that, I cut all the skin off a piece of chicken, cut up some breast meat, and stuck it in a different salad with just a drop of fat free honey mustard dressing and some crushed pecans (total of about 250 cals). According to her doctor, Mum's supposed to be trying to lose 15 pounds. She also used to have eating issues (she spent most of the 1970's living on the odd cracker and piece of cheese: "I was just on a DIET."). I hope she follows my example in eating healthy rather than straight up starving...
Convo with Step-Mom later yesterday evening:
Step-Mom: (as I'm walking in the door) "I think you're even skinner than last time I saw you!"
Me: :/
Step-Mom: "I'm so jealous. You look great!!!"
Right on.
Some yummy snacks for y'all:
This has been around for a while, but it never occurred to me to actually purchase some. 60 cals per packet, and the soup is DELICIOUS. Creamy and yummy and comfort food-ish.
This is what I sneak into the cinema when I go see movies (which is quite often, as we get free cinema tickets from the cable company). 100 cals per bag (popped). I like to add a little Season All and salt.
We've had this in the cupboard for a while and I just forgot about it until the other day. It's 5 cals per teaspoon, and you really don't need that much to make hot cocoa. I used 2 teaspoons, some splenda, and 1 tbsp of fat free half & half (whole drink was 20 cals). It tastes like a friggin brownie.
Little Sis got me onto these. 60 cals each, and if you're like me it takes an hour to eat just one.
Cinnamon tea that's also like a gentle laxative? You can't really go wrong.
Have a wonderful day, ladies!
Still 98 pounds, praise be to god....
I keep having weird dreams about my extended family. Like last night, I dreamt that my aunt and uncle and cousins told me and Little Sis we should go to their house for Thanksgiving (I stress a lot about Thanksgiving, because each year it makes me realize more and more that the father and step-mother dislike my presence at family functions). So Aunt and Uncle invited us and we said ok (even though they're in Ireland and do not have Thanksgiving), but then their house was in the middle of this ridiculous swamp, and the only way to get there was by trying to cross these crazy, mostly rotten wooden plank-bridge things. And there were alligators in the water. Then of course when we finally made it to the house, I was too scared to eat because I didn't know how many calories were in everything, but that happens in like every dream.
-_-
Snack time!
I took 2 regular-sized bananas and cut them into very thin slices, which I placed on parchment paper.
I sprinkled half of them with a little cinnamon and splenda, and baked them in the oven at 200 degrees Fahrenheit (~94 degrees Centigrade), turning them over every half hour.
After about 2 hours, I had banana chips.
(I should have cooked them longer, as a lot of them weren't quite crispy enough.) The cinnamon splenda ones were definitely yummier than the plain.
I shall be trying Almost.Skinny's frozen fruit one day this week, in my continuing effort to eat fruit without gagging. I hate fruit. Too sweet, and too mushy. I'd rather have a steak, thanks. But I also don't want scurvy, so methinks I should step up my efforts to eat more fruit... There shall also be some more yummy recipes up--Mum wants me to make her pumpkin soup, and I found a recipe for almond milk ice cream. I know we have an ice cream maker somewhere, so I'm definitely trying that one...
I've started work on Peri's patch:
You can't see the pencil marks for where the actual embroidery is going, but I'll keep posting pics as my work progresses. That's just the background. I'll be painting another layer before it gets sprayed and the edges painted so it doesn't start fraying, then the actual embroidery shall begin.
And it will be epic.
f*ckedUpAppendix, thanks doll! And I can definitely relate to parents favouring the other kids. Mum treats Little Sis like a princess. And of course Dad favours his boys. I'm in the middle of 6 kids, so I never had much a chance.
Eloise18, my Mum is the same way. She still offers me cheese, even though she should know at this point that I HATE cheese and have always hated it.
Ariana, teaspoon, and Leto; I'm glad there's others out there who love the Sword in the Stone! :D I used to watch that movie like every day when I was little. I'm pretty sure it's one of the reasons I'm so unhinged.
Tracy, hope you survive your parents!! <3
And Morbid.Diathesis, Honor Regzig, Depressed Skinny Mess, bonesarepure, Lilah Lee, Sofiasaurr, Kennedy, All.That.Wander.Are.Not.Lost, Amy, Sarah, and The Next Best Thing--thanks so much for all your kind words! You gals are the best. :-*
Off to exercise. Have a lovely day (or night)!! <3
