I think I spotted her yesterday morning under the abandoned building next door, but of course I've been second guessing myself ever since.
My friends and siblings helped me set up one of those humane animal traps, with cat food and stinky fish to lure her out. So far I've caught the stray orange kitten.
I thought I saw her poke her head out late last night when I went to check the trap, but I'm second guessing that, too, as two of the strays (the orange kitten and Not Ivy, who looks just like Ivy only skinny) have been hanging around because they know there is extra food there.
Last night Landlord let me leave the front door of our building wide open, and I slept on the floor beside my door in case Ivy came inside. By "slept" I mean dozed on and off between 5.00 AM and 8.00 AM.
I've refreshed the food in the trap again, and draped my old bathrobe over it because it smells like me. I have not actually seen Ivy under the building since the first time yesterday, though there are a lot of places under there she could hide even from the flashlight. Lil Sis made posters, which I hung up in the surrounding buildings just in case anyone sees her somewhere else.
I talked to a guy from the town Fire Department and Building Department, who says he doesn't think there is any more we can do that we haven't already done. Lil Sis spoke to a vet who said the same thing. I broke into the building with Mike the Band Leader, and there really wouldn't be an easy way to rip out the floor to reach her that way, as the floor is pretty solid and filled with asbestos. Plus I think all that noise would terrify her and she might flee and then we'd be back to square one.
I cannot eat. I feel sick. I know I will not sleep again tonight if she doesn't come home. And Bossman is trying to tell me I MUST come into work tomorrow.
I will die if Ivy does not come back.